Guilt

The uh... guilt of loving unjustly, justly loving another just because he's tall dark and handsomely handy with your eagerly giving heart. Another reason to fault yourself for the feelings you have for him when you know she's on his mind.. you hate that don't you?
The easy remedy is to let it all go, but you know your stubborn heart won't let you turn away from what it wants. It's like in order to get some type of peace, you've got to emotionally and spiritually commit suicide; thinking you will be able to deal with the pain for a while and it'll just go away.
I'm going to tell you it just doesn't work that way.
A wise man once told me that there is no greater sin that to turn away from your heart... so will I be put in an emotional hell for doing this? I'm not really sure, but I feel like I'm already there.

I guess you can say I'm already where I want to be... but something still draws me to your light. I'm a freaking moth to the flame... and I guess I'd rather die in it than live without it.

*Lovely Thoughts*